In the last 4 years I have been let go, promoted and even quit jobs. I found myself to be in a constant search for “my fit,” “my people” and “my place.” I have adapted my cover letter so many times that I am not even sure which skills I am really great at and which ones need work. I have interviewed by phone, email and in person. I have been the perfect chameleon with 1 part charisma, 1 part authenticity and 2 parts baloney. You want me to be more administrative, sure. You want me to be more creative, sure. You want me to be more adaptable, sure.
I should have seen this ending coming from a mile away. What was I thinking? How far did I expect to go trying to be all things to all people?
I would quickly lose myself in every job. I would give away my best parts in return for title, status, stability and acknowledgement. And as to be expected, I was disappointed by each organization.
They (of course) seemed to be incapable of fulfilling my insatiable need of belonging. I honestly didn’t know how to get out of the system that I thought I had become an expert of.
I was extremely codependent on a false reality. No job can give me a sense of belonging. No organization can fulfill my need for acknowledgement.
My hope, my substance and my future are found in God and God alone.
He has been near me all along, patiently waiting for me to take a risk on the gifts and talents He gave me. He has been whispering to me during every job interview, “My daughter, people are waiting for you beyond these walls.”
It took a final fall for me to say out loud, “I have nothing left to lose…so I guess I could give MY DREAM a try.”
I know it sounds crazy that my dream was my last resort, but that’s the sad truth. I wouldn’t have done it on my own. I needed to feel defeated to get creative about my future. I needed to feel disappointed by a system to acknowledge that I was placing blame and responsibility on the wrong person or thing. It was me that kept trying to fit myself in a box, in a title, in a cubicle and in a meeting where I didn’t belong. Especially as a female, I have found so much safety in the supporting role. I have never gambled on my own talents, my own reputation, my own name…until NOW.
My story might not be the same as yours, but as a creative person, an artist and entrepreneur it was time to create my own story.
Over the last 3 months I have been piecing together my business and every other day the nerves almost leave me paralyzed, but I keep thinking back to my alternative. A simple game of “would you rather” and I find my fears calmed and my anticipation at full speed.
Daily I wake up overwhelmed and surprised by JOY. I have never let myself live this close to God’s grace.
If I’m honest, I didn’t know God could write me such an extravagant and personal story.
For the first time I don’t know where my career will “lead” or what my “status” will be.
But I wouldn’t change it for anything.
It’s true what Martin Luther King Jr. said, “Freedom has always been an expensive thing.”
But I think you should also know that FREEDOM is always worth the costs…
Season by season I watch Him, amazed
In awe of the mystery of His perfect ways
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful to me
I can’t remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can’t remember one single regret
In serving God only, and trusting His hand
All I have need of, His hand will provide
He’s always been faithful to me.
KATRINA FRYE—After years of sitting behind the desk, seeing other’s ideas through, ensuring someone else’s business was operational, Katrina Frye decided to use her expertise with the one community she is most passionate about – ARTISTS. While earning her bachelors degree in Visual Arts she quickly saw a lack of understanding and training on how an artist goes from the studio into the gallery. Katrina began to explore this gap of information and headed back to school to receive her masters in Arts Management from the Drucker School of Business. Now with ten years of arts management experience Katrina is uniquely positioned to share her findings through her company, Mischief Managed. Founded in 2016 Mischief Managed has supported over 100 artists around the nation to achieve their dreams.
Your Gifts: Spiritual Gifts Discovery
God created you with purpose and passion—learn how you can take the gifts He has given you and use them to advance His Kingdom in ways you never imagined.
Here are more free articles, excerpted from the book Your Gifts shown above, one for each of the nine Team Ministry Spiritual Gifts…
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Evangelism?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Prophecy?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Teaching?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Exhortation?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Shepherding?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Mercy-Showing?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Serving?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Giving?
- Do You Have the Spiritual Gift of Administration?
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